this feeling

do you know this feeling
when everything
is out of track
and you are facing
many obstacles
before you can go
back on track

do you know the feeling of
you are trying to be
very positive with your surrounding
sadly, many manage to
influenced you
that slowly take all those positiveness
in you and then left you alone
hanging.... alone...

do you realise how bad it is
when you are incapable of
solving your problems
days by days you keep thinking
you listed down all those solutions
but all of them are out of your reach
keep trying then failed
tried again..yet failed again
keep failing after trying
slowly absorbs your self motivation
out of you

do you know that every time
i am feeling this
i am hoping that some would
really understand
searching in the list
but everybody is different
nobody can fully understand
even i cannot understand other people completely
because nobody is that fit to each other
so its fair
but it ain't comforting

you keep on believing that
every problems got its own solution
there is always a silver lining after heavy storm
always a light at the end of tunnel
but to get that solution
isn't that easy
cry and pain are part of it

no pictures to be used
no pictures can described this feeling
nor words
what may you understand
is not even half of it